Happy IduL Fitri *cheer*

Alhamdulillah...The fasting month is about to reach the end. And now - excitedly - we're welcoming the Holy Idul Fitri, a day of winning, a day of celebration, a day of forgiveness..a day full of love ^-^

I'd like to say congrats for those who have done fasting well in this month, congrats to for those who will spend their holiday in their hometown & meet their lovely family... *don't forget to bring some presents, hehehe*

And the last..as the Holy Qur'an always says that a human being is the tiniest creature on the planet and on the whole galaxies, including me; the-girl-full-of-sin, i'd like to ask for apologize for everyone here who read my message. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry... Sorry for my misbehave, my insulting words, my arrogance, my misunderstood, my prejudicial attitude..all my mistakes. I sincerely ask you an apologize and I hope you can also sincerely forgive me..There should be no harm-feeling by now ^-^

And now...HAPPY IDUL FITRI....Minal Aidin Wal Faidzin everyone..Be merry!!

- Goddess -

Cowo Ganteng VS Cowo Jelek

Kalo cowok ganteng pendiam
cewek2 bilang : woow.... cool banget...
kalo cowok jelek pendiam
cewek2 bilang : ih kuper...

kalo cowok ganteng jomblo
cewek2 bilang : pasti dia perfeksionis
kalo cowok jelek jomblo
cewek2 bilang : sudah jelas...kagak laku...

kalo cowok ganteng berbuat jahat
cewek2 bilang : nobody's perfect
kalo cowok jelek berbuat jahat
cewek2 bilang : pantes...tampangnya kriminal

kalo cowok ganteng nolongin cewe yang diganggu preman
cewek2 bilang : you're my hero
kalo cowok jelek nolongin cewe yang diganggu preman
cewek2 bilang : pasti premannya temennya dia...

kalo cowok ganteng dapet cewek cantik
cewek2 bilang : klop...serasi banget...
kalo cowok jelek dapet cewek cantik
cewek2 bilang : pasti main dukun...

kalo cowok ganteng diputusin cewek
cewek2 bilang : jangan sedih, khan masih ada aku...
kalo cowok jelek diputusin cewek
cewek2 bilang :...(terdiam, tapi telunjuknya meliuk-liuk dari atas
ke
bawah)...

kalo cowok ganteng ngaku indo
cewek2 bilang : emang mirip-mirip bule sih...
kalo cowok jelek ngaku indo
cewek2 bilang : pasti ibunya Jawa bapaknya robot...

kalo cowok ganteng penyayang binatang
cewek2 bilang : perasaannya halus...penuh cinta kasih
kalo cowok jelek penyayang binatang
cewek2 bilang : sesama keluarga ema ng harus menyayangi...

kalo cowok ganteng bawa BMW
cewek2 bilang : matching...keren luar dalem
kalo cowok jelek bawa BMW
cewek2 bilang : mas majikannya mana?...

kalo cowok ganteng males difoto
cewek2 bilang : pasti takut fotonya kesebar-sebar
kalo cowok jelek males difoto
cewek2 bilang : nggak tega ngeliat hasil cetakannya ya?...

kalo cowok ganteng naek motor gede
cewek2 bilang : wah kayak lorenzo lamas...bikin lemas...
kalo cowok jelek naek motor gede
cewek2 bilang : awas!! mandragade lewat...

kalo cowok ganteng nuangin air ke gelas cewek
cewek2 bilang : ini baru cowok gentlemen
kalo cowok jelek nuangin air ke gelas cewek
cewek2 bilang : naluri pembantu, emang gitu...

kalo cowok ganteng bersedih hati
cewek2 bilang : let me be your shoulder to cry on
kalo cowok2 jelek bersedih hati
cewek2 bilang&nbs p; : cengeng amat!!...laki-laki bukan sih?

Kalo cowok ganteng baca e-mail ini
langsung ngaca sambil senyum2 kecil,
lalu berkata "life is beautifull"

kalo cowok jelek baca e-mail ini,
Frustasi, ngambil tali jemuran, trus triak
sekeras-kerasnya "HIDUP INI KEJAAAAMMM....!!!"

Huahahahahahaha...!!!

Alkisah ada seorang kaya raya sedang mengadakan pesta di rumahnya di

kawasan

Menteng. Kayanya orang ini nggak kira-kira, duitnya bejibun, belon

rumahnya di

Menteng ama di Pondok Indah, punya banyak simpanan cewek, abis itu dia

juga

punya helikopter ama pesawat terbang. Pokoknya semuanya deh.





Orangnya rada nyentrik. Kolam renangnya diisi banyak buaya. Lagi pada

pesta di

pinggir kolam, si doi berdiri di atas menara life guard supaya

temen-temennya

bisa ngeliat.





Terus dia suruh semuanya tenang dan berkata, “Baiklah, orang pertama

yang

berani renang di kolam ini dari ujung ke ujung bakalan gue kasih semua

duit

gue.”





Semua pada diem. Si kaya ngeliat ke temen-temennya dengan gemes lalu

berkata

“OK, orang pertama yang berani renang di kolam ini dari ujung ke ujung,

gue

kasih semua duit gue plus rumah gue.”





Tetap nggak ada juga yang bereaksi. “OK, kalau gitu semua duit gue,

rumah,

mobil-mobil, pesawat terbang, semua milik gue, saham, surat berharga

dan semua

cewek gue, pokoknya semua yang gue miliki.”





SPLASH!!! Ada yang terjun! Buaya-buaya pada ngerubutin tapi dia

berkelit aje

kayak Tarzan. Berkelit ke sono-sini, berkelahi juge dengan buaya itu.

Akhirnya

nyampe juga di seberang. Si kaya turun dari life guard tower lalu

berlari ke

orang itu.





Kaya : “Gile lu! Hebat bener, gua nggak nyangka kalo ada yang berani

melakukannya. Elu mau duitnya sekarang?”





Nekad : “Nggak! Gue nggak mau duit!”





Kaya : “Elu mau rumahnya sekarang?”





Nekad : “Nggak! Gue nggak mau rumahnya!”





Kaya : “Elu mau mobil ama pesawatnya sekarang atau ntar?”





Nekad : “Nggak! Gue juga nggak mau pesawat!”





Kaya : “Elu minta saham atau surat berharga?”





Nekad : “Nggak! Gue nggak mau!”





Kaya : “Elu minta cewek gue?”





Nekad : “Nggak! gue juge nggak mau itu!”





Kaya : “Habis, elu itu maunya apa donk???”





Nekad : “Gue mau tahu siapa bajingan yang dorong gue tadi!”

Peace...

1. There're dozen jobs to do at my office and I haven't done all of them



2. I have lots of mid test papers to be done by tomorrow and the day after, and I haven't done - even one of them - yet



3. I'm now facing mid test, one full week. It will be finished 2 days before Idul Fitri, I won't go to my hometown - West Sumatra - to meet all my relatives whom I miss so much



4. I need a joyous sleep in the weekend when i get home. But i can't, coz I have to help my mom handling the house-care and cook for them



5. My insomnia is getting worse each and every day, something you won't expect when all you need is a tight-endless sleep



But somehow..I feel peaceful deep inside my heart - with all my crappy problems. I don't even know why and what is it...this feeling. Is it a true sincere feeling to receive all Allah's ordeals? Is it the rock-hearted of mine which discreetly come out? Or maybe it's just my struggle to be more patient during Ramadhan?



Is it a peaceful feeling? Or numbness? Feel-less? a sincerity..or it's just me going crazy??



- Goddess *in blue* -

Tukang Pijet

Ada yang tau ga tukang pijet yang enak & murah??

PEGEL NEH!!

Jangan Pijet plus2 tapi...bulan Ramadhan, hehehe... (so what?)

hadoooh...molor kayanya enak neh!!!

- Goddess -

Cara orang-orang IT memilih pasangan

World Computer Scientist Journal mengadakan Survey terhadap para computer scientist tentang bagaimana cara mereka memandang wanita, hasilnya sbb:

1. Tipe CPU: pintar, pemikir, tidak banyak bicara tapi mengerjakan banyak hal, (diam-diam tau-tau sudah tujuh bulan)

2. Tipe monitor: genit, sukanya diperhatikan, suka pamer, (padahal belum tentu yang dipamerin bagus)

3. Tipe Keyboard: senang dipegang, di tekan dan di pencet di berbagai lokasi (awas salah tekan bisa kena jitak)

4. Tipe Printer: Aktif, ditekan sedikit gerakannya banyak, kalau sedang dipakai berisik (ga cocok buat tipe 21, mengganggu tetangga)

5. Tipe Mouse: Pas dan enak di genggam, dingin-dingin empuk

6. Tipe Window: Tampak luar bagus, dalamnya penuh bugs

7. Tipe Linux-Console: Tampak luar jelek, dalamnya "andal"

8. Tipe XWindows: Luar dalam bisa dihandalkan

9. Tope DOS: Wajah tidak cantik, belum tentu dalamnya tidak baik

10. Tipe UNIX: diam-diam...multi user

11. Tipe LAN: Bisa dipake barengan

:D

- Goddess -

I gave Up!!

Finally...my body can no longer carry over all duties i have. Last night after the class i went to Takor (Campus' cafeteria), bought a drink & had a chat w/ my friends. Suddenly i felt dizzy & my hands were shaking badly. Hurriedly i run for Ojek & went back to my dorm...

I was so stubborn that i thought i still have a little power to go to an internet center to check my email etc..but just 30 minutes later, i couldn't stand anymore. I ran out the internet center's front door and found the nearest drain..then i threw up, so many *sigh*

I think i'm so exhausted & got chilled in my tummy...i carry too many tasks to do & has been ignoring my healthiness. aaarrghh it felt so awful, you couldn't even stand up steadily...

God, i hope i won't get ill for the next couple days..coz i'm gonna face mid test next week & i won't be able doing the test with a bad health...

Hhh...i feel like sleeping as long as i can, but i can't. Hiks hiks...be patient Wed..be patient *sigh*

Sebuah Malam

Coretan hati…

Brett, brett
Srett, srett

Dahi berkerut
Bibir mengerucut
Kekesalan menumpuk…


Tik tok tik tok tik tok tik tok…..


Coretan membesar dan mengeras…


Breeeetttt………
Srreeetttttttttt……….
Greeeeeeeettttttttt……..
Uuuuuurrrrrrgggggghhhhh!!!!!


Sepasang mata di kegelapan menyilau
Nyalang!!!
Memperlihatkan asa yang gundah dan kacau
Gamblang!!!!

Coretan menjerit, akhirnya…


AAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHH……!!!!!!!!

Persetan dingin yang terbawa angin!!
Persetan kesunyian yang bekukan malam!!!
Persetan anjing yang menggonggong dan mendengking!!!
Persetan dengan semua setan yang menyetan!!!

Hhhhhh…..
Lelah…


Akankah malaikat mengawasiku tidur di kala senyap?
Akankah dia mencatat dosaku saat ku terlelap?
Atau akankah dia membawaku terbang?

Tinggi…

Tinggi diatas awan…

Ah tidak…

Dia merendah..

Dan merendah…

Makin rendah…

Terpuruk…

MATI !!!

- Goddess -

Esti’s poem tells about me writing a poetry

Yang Diungkapkan Oleh Tinta

Tangannya bergerak-gerak
Coretkan tinta
Ungkapkan hati yang sedang tak biasa

Kau tak akan tahu ada apa sebenarnya
Wajahnya sungguh biasa saja
Tak tampak adanya perubahan jiwa

Lihatlah yang ia tuliskan
Temukan sebuah makna lebih dalam
Dan kau tahu kalau ia sedang berjuang
Berusaha pecahkan dilemma dalam “Sebuah Malam”

Written By: Esti
05 Oct, 06
7.30 pm
At class

Daily Day...

Bangun..jam 7 (kalo lagi rajin, kalo lagi males jam 7.30 bahkan jam 8)
Mandi (30 menit..rite!!Smua temen2 kosan gw paling ribut klo udah nyuruh gw cepetan mandinya)

pake lotion, pake baju, make-up an, pake jilbab (40 menit..total siap2 1 jam..bused, lama jg ya?)
Jalan (clingak/uk cari tebengan temen kosan yang bawa motor. Kalo lagi apes keluar Kukusan jalan, baru naik bis kuning)

Ngangkot sampe kantor (Pondok Gede nan panas tanpa ampun..Make-up gw jadi sia2 gini. Sial, kan ga lucu ketemu cowo keren tp muke udah dempul..Hhh,dasar Pondok Gede. Hehehehe, no offense utk The Pondokers..)

Jam 10 nyampe kantor..ngidupin komputer, OL kalo sempet...clingak/uk nyari anak2 yg blm dateng. Basa basi nanyain yg lain pada kemana. kalo udah ada kerjaan yang siap di ubrak/ik diatas meja ya mulai kerja. Kalo ngga bengong dulu bentar, ngadem juga sambil nenangin diri dari cuaca luar yang ampun panasnya langsung ke ruang AC yg bikin merinding...

Selesai bengong baru kerja, sambil dengerin lagu2 yang di setel Royas, Budi / Ogie (yang kadang2 ENGGA banget!! Ratu lah, Samson lah, sampe lagu sountrack Candy2 yang dibikin jadi gahar banget!!(anak kecil juga bakal kabur dengernya), lagu SMS lah..yang termutakhir..JABLAI (Hhh, rusak otak gw ini kalo nyampe kampus ntr, ga bs mikir lg..brainwashed bgt tu lagu)

jam 12 udah pada mulai "keluar" aslinya..ada yang ngantuk, nyanyi2 sendiri (dengan tidak manusiawinya), pergi ke ruang "pembuangan sial" maen PS 2 / sekedar OL..treak2 deh tu maen PS-nya (Okay, boyz...tell u this, ure allowed to scream as hell as u want in front of ur fellas..but never do that in front of someone u've crush on..), kalo lg ga puasa hbs salat pada makan kerumah Royas.

Jam 1/1.30 mulai kerja lagi..makin sore makin keluar taring2nya (terutama kalo designer2 ini lagi stuck kreativitas, treak2 cari ilham..padahal gada hasil.Hhh..guys, kita kapan kaya nya ya?? :D)

Baru berapa jam kerja, jam 3 biasanya udah pada treak2 "Adoooohhh, ngantok banget neh gueeeeee!!!!!!!", kalo cukup nekad utk ninggalin kerjaan ya langsung keluar ruangan, masuk kamar & dengan polosnya molor ampe ileran...Kalo nekad tetep nahan ngantuk "ngelampiasinnya" lagi ke PlayStation, treak2 lagi (Addoh kalian cuma maen tendang2an aja knp treak2nya kaya orang diperkaos seh??), "Beuughh Loe..sukurin!!", "Adooohhh...payah neeee!!!", "ayo tendang tendang..hajar!!!", "Curaaaangggg!!!!!!!" Gue sebagai wanita satu2nya disini cuma bisa meringis, ngerutin dahi, paling pasrah cuma treak "Diaaaaaaaaammmmmmm!!!!!!!" atau gw ancem aja kalo gw mau setel lagu2 Gothic, pasti perhatian langsung teralih dr PS sambil treak2 protes ke gw, "Halah lagu setan mulu yang disetel, ntr malem gw dpt nightmare dah!! ganteeee!!!!"

Jam 3.30 gw udah mulai siap2 balik (kalo ga bulan puasa jam4.40), salat, retouch (halah..teteup :D), cabut deh, nyiapin ati menelusuri jalan2 Pd.Gede yang ngga banget itu.
Sampe kampus jam 5.30..first person i look forward..SITA (How sad..gw jadi kaya cw jomblo..nyampe kampus nyari cw jg *sigh*). Nemu sita, cabut ke Takor..nongkrong (kalo laper makan, ga laper ngopi aja. yang paling sering sih laper mata *ngakak*)

Jam 6.30 sita tetep nongkrong di takor (She's a Hinduism), dan gw pergi ke mushola gedung S2 buat salat. Selesai salat cabs kekelas.

Jam 7 pm dosen dateng (kalo lagi nglunjak baru dateng jam7.30), mulai pelajaran. kalo ati lagi seneng sih dengerin (walaupun males nyatet..yg ada gw biasa bikin2 puisi dikelas/cetting ma the girl next desk :D), kalo lg kurang ajar sih foto2 ma sita (weitz, i'm really an expert in doing photo w/o getting caught by the lecture,hehehe)

jam 8.30 (kalo dosennya gatau malu tetep ngajar), gw udah sibuk berdehem sambil ngucapin, "Uhuhuhudhah uhuhhujamh uhuhstengehuhu uhuhsembhhiilan!!!!!!!!" dengan pitch control yang cepet banget :D anak2 pasti tiba2 ngekor klakuan gw (heran, gampang ya dapet pengikut kalo ngelakuin sesuatu yang ngga bener??) Kalo dosennya sadar tiba2 mahasiswa/i-nya batuk massal, baru pura2 liat jam "Ya ampun, udah setengah sembilan ya?Kok saya ngga berasa ya?" (dan anak2 menanggapinya dengan tatapan yang tidak bisa diprediksi/gw takut memprediksi..karna beberapa malah ga bs diprediksi alias udah molor)

Jam 8.30 cabs ke takor lagi (it's my (and our) real class,hehehe...), beli minum, ngobrol (khusus buat temen ngaco gw, cw asik bernama Lucky, dia akan langsung beli minum, nyalain rokok, buka tas, ambil buku TTS, dan dia - dalam adegan lambatttt - seakan2 telah disedot ke dunia lain bernama Dunia TTS)

jam 9, kalo laper beli makan ma anak2, kalo engga gw langsung nyari ojek..back to my dormitory. get rest and prepare my self & my healthiness to enter a new day...a same new day..tomorrow...

And the day after...

And the day after...

And the day after...

ADOOOHHH.......MAU JALAN-JALAN NEEEHH...!!!!!!!!


Ps: Photo was taken on Oct 2, 06...Me & Sita was bored to death in da class :D
(She looked cute in my glasses ^-^)

I think I have enough!!!!!!!!!

never know what future holds for me...



i never can predict what the rest of my life would be...



i just know this...i'm living my life as i should be



i do what i should do, i run for what i wanna reach



i be for what i am...



i won't be what people ask me to be...



someone else but me...



Yeah...someone else but me




* in blue... *

Heavenly Heaven

Heaven reveals in the vague sight

Lay down...the self remains breathless

Smile for the head spinning roller coaster

A delicate avidity...

A bitter sweet fantasy...

A chilled passionate smile...

Coalesce with a brittle soul flying high...

As the lazy body fulfilled with satisfaction

These eyes discreetly closed, heading to a dream-nation

- Goddess -

Darkness Falls

Quick inhale...Strengthened heart

A flash memory of a miserable part

Got nowhere to run

Seen nothing to find

Had no place to hide

Held nothing inside

Heart beat run along with the hand shakes

Falling tears headed me to a sorrow land

Buried deep inside

Forever will hide

In never ending dark

That lights your path

- Goddess -

Overloaded

This confusion drives me nut

.....................

Those chores ruin my normality

.....................

Hhh...I'm wordless

Useless

Careless?



If it comes the time for me to do my deed

My brain just couldn't stop to consider

Stop yelling! I already know it

Put your expectation lower



I did get some triumphs

Couple times I made them proud

But I also had my breakdown

The feeling when suddenly the sky falls through me

And the world just wouldn't stop mocking at me



Now, tell me one thing...

How am I supposed to deal with all these?

Great! What a beautiful life I live in

Being buried under my unwanted duties



Please, bother me not...

Give me a time to drown in the world of the unknown

This madness has to be stopped

Now scram, you! Leave me alone...



- Goddess -

Back to campus...

Routine...welcome board
Knock knock brain, wake up baby
Time to work again...harder
Make my grade better

Well hello folks,
Some look fatter, other look slimmer...
Some even getting hotter (dude!!)
The hell...still missing them after all

Aloha classes,
You're the only thing that looks stagnant
No progress...did the air conditioner has been replaced?
Oh, come on!
I paid too much that actually each class could have a flat screen!

Aawwkkh...not those lecturers again!
They even couldn’t see that I have an IQ of 117!
"Dewi...got "B" again?"
"Yeah, mam...the test wasn't for my level"
Uhm..what was that? A quantitative stat?
Yeah rite, kill me...
Did the IQ test give the wrong result for me?

Oh, look! What happen to my campus?
Is it becoming smaller or the principle thought we have too many space for playing card?
They built more constructions, fostered our loatheness
How about shrinking the priciple's tire again? That would be nice

Whuteva...
Nu term, nu spirit
Nu hell...nu joy
Nu pal...nu boy (?)

*wink*

- Goddess -

Deja Vu

Sunday Evening, 3.14 pm

Sitting in my bed...
The bed i used to sleep in 8 months ago
Feels like i'm having a Deja Vu...
The tape of my life is rewinding once more
Birds singing...Wind blowing...Trees dancing...
Hot summer-sun greets me through my dorm window
She smiles, showing her super-flashy light
Welcoming me back...

A year more of struggling
A year more of sucking my parents' money
A year more of going to college


3.16 pm

it's quiet...Peacefully quiet
i take a far-away look to the bluish sky
i used to stare at the cloud's shapes
But now, there's no - even a single - cloud up there
it's a fair sky...Peacefully fair sky

3.17 pm

Here comes Adzan...
Two hours since my mom left from my dorm
it's a strange feeling...i miss her already
My eyes are now getting burned
Silly me! Why do i have to cry?
Being stucked in my home just for 3 months and now suddenly i'm becoming a homy?
Hmph...This sucks! Breath, Wed...Breath
it's time to get out once more from ur cage and go back to your nature

3.20 pm

Feels like it's going to be a tough life this year
Call your God's name & your parents' name, Wed...
Stand up...
Pray...
it's Ashar...


- Goddess -

Broken...

Otakku kacau, galau terhalau bara
Menghitung jumlah degup jantung...
Yang entah bagaimana bersatu dengan lambung
Seperti pusaran mesin cuci
Aku ingin muntah, aku ingin pingsan
Memikirkan yang "tak terpikirkan"

Ini sudah jam 2, mengapa jam di dinding itu tak bisa diam?
Dan mengapa air mata ini juga tak bisa diam?
Menggenang di ujung jurang jiwa...
Seperti kristal mati tak berarti

Bila saatnya tiba, mungkin aku akan menyerah
Mengusung bendera putih dengan teriakan "berakhir saja sudah!"
Biar aku sulam jaring-jaring hidup ini sendiri
Kan ku buat benteng diri semu tak terjamah

Koyakan membekas ini
Jadi saksi kekejaman satu kata terbungkus dasar makna bernama cinta
Pasrahlah wahai Dewa!
Cinta tidak selalu indah bagi semua insan ada
Bagai mata air jernih..
Namun banyak kerikil tajam menusuk
Bagai angkasa indah tak terkata
Namun tak ada ruang daya menghirup udara

Sudikah anak hawa mati tanpa cinta?
Bertanya pada satu persoalan semesta
Mencari jati pada diri yang fana

Jantungku masih berdegup...
Air mata masih menghangat...
Aku tak tidur, tak pula terjaga
Aku ada dalam ketiadaan, atau tidak ada diantara keduanya?

Cinta...itulah
Tidak indah, tidak hina
Tidak salah, tidak dosa
Tak diantara keduanya...

- Goddess -

Freedom !!!

The wind blowed my face
Dried my tears
But couldn't do anything to integrate this puzzle back

This puzzle has been torned to pieces
Been ripped out like a dozen useless trashes
I looke upon the cold breezing stars
Spread out...No shape
Just like the puzzle..
The puzzle of my heart


This freedom of mine
Has gone with my tears
This freedom of the human
Has been stolen by the gun

I tried to blocked those screams
And convinced myself that everything's okay
I tried not to turning back
And acted like they were fine

Those bloods..And i fell
Those piece of fleshes..And i cried
Those screams..And i hurt
This freedom..Of mine has gone
Of them has gone...

God Almighty...
Secure them, love them
Please..
Holy Allah..The Merciful
Open the window of heaven for them
Unlock their jails
Please..

Free us..
Free them...
For the FREEDOM !!
The freedom itself

Amin...

For my families in Palestine & Lebanon
You're the lover of Allah...Children of heaven
Freedom is distincly one step forward
Don't give up Syuhadas...Our freedom
May Allah S.W.T always guide you..

LET'S KICKED SOME ISRAEL's STINKY A*S !!!
HELL (THEM) YEAH !!!

Dancing on Mud

Already dressed..couldn’t be more glamorous

Already made up.. couldn’t be more pretty

Already done the hair.. couldn’t be more shining

All eyes stared at her

This physical beauty was preparing herself

Ready to cheer audience up

On the mud stage

Watched by hypocrites & fakers

Oh she’s the Queen

Dancing, singing, smiling…

Hide behind the mask of lie..

Which-somehow-looked so beautiful

Oh give her some money, compliments or anything

Then she’ll still be your Queen

Dancing on mud..

Full of hipocrites & fakers

Just the same as her..

Let’s go…follow what she did

So we can also be Queens..or Kings

To survive in this hipocritical world

Even angels turned dark

And devils got shinner

Don’t cry..Don’t feel the misery

There’re no such things like it

This is a mud stage, just dance…

Follow her, Queen of lie…

You’ll never suffer

You’ll never die..

Kala Hitam Menjadi Putih

Kelam…Suram…

Jangan tatap angkasa itu

Gelapnya tak kunjung hilang

Pilunya tak kunjung berkurang

Ku tahu itu salah, dia pun tahu itu berdosa

Salah siapa? Dia yang membuat senja itu tak lagi indah

Dia yang menyebabkan dingin itu menyiksa

Dia yang menyebabkan matahari berkuasa

Ia membuat arah…bertarung dengan angin

Ia membuat hukum…bertarung dengan Tuhan

Ia membuat dunia…bertarung dengan alam

Ia membuat masa depan…bertarung dengan takdir

Hangat tak lagi bersahabat dengannya

Asa tak lagi mau menyemangatinya

Kerendahan hati tak lagi bisa melindunginya

Sombong yang sekarang menjadi sahabatnya

Topeng yang sekarang menjadi pelindungnya

Riya yang sekarang menyemangatinya

Gelap…redup…

Jangan tatap mata itu

Kemunafikannya menyayat hati

Kebohongannya menimbulkan emosi

Serasa di puncak dunia

Menutupi wajah penuh kebusukan…

Berlindung dibalik topeng kecantikan

Menutupi hati yang penuh kemungkaran…

Berbalut busana penuh kehormatan

Hitam menjadi putih

Bohong menjadi benar

Neraka menjadi surga

Iblis menjadi malaikat

Palsu menjadi asli

Munafik menjadi tulus

Terperdaya olehnya…

Insan tak lagi berakal sehat

Terpenjara oleh kata-katanya…

Kitab tak lagi pegangan akhirat

Oh Tuhan…sadarkanlah dia

Oh surga…jangan jauhi dia

Oh alam…kasihanilah dia

Oh manusia…jangan ikuti dia

Biarlah kegelapan menyusulnya

Biar dingin merasukinya

Relakan hitam menjadi dirinya

Relakan iblis memeluknya

Membalut kelamnya dalam tangis

Mengusir deritanya dalam jerit

Menebus salahnya dalam darah

Membungkus jiwanya dalam kematian…

For someone out there who is standing on earth…

Please consider one thing..You’re not everything

Moreover..You’re N.O.T.H.I.N.G