[Poem] Flee!

Where should we go, my hobbled footsteps?

Her last trace has been erased by my my rain of tears

In silent whispers I called her

Wishing that she could hear it, or anyone else who could

And send it to her

Where should I look, my puffy eyes?

Her last silhouette has gone along with the miserable dawn

In the darkest hour I swore

I would never fall down and never leave her behind

Because she and I were meant to be

Why should I breathe, my creaking lung?

Our time might have been stopped long time ago

I've drawn transparent lines in between these paths

I can't hold her arms while we're stepping in different ground

While I'm breathing without her...

I said hello to her world last night

Was she there?

I cried my blood through all the holes last night

Was she stare?

I missed her so much it ached me to my weakest

Was she care?

People are living for their own reason

And so am I, and so was she

By that matter I beg You

Knees down

Hands up

If only, You allow me...

Without any wing on me, without any circle mark above me

Let me see her glaring face smile upon me

O' Lord... Let me touch her pale flawless skin

Without any thick transparent lines in between

Let me FLy frEE. Let me FLEE!

If only, Mummy...

G.

PS: For my beloved Mum. You're in the best hand now, I do believe. Just don't mad at me for being such an annoying daughter who cries while yelling at her mommy for a shoulder to cry on. Because really mom, I was, am and will always be your little girl. Forever...

[Fashion] Between the old city & the Hijab Hunt contest

Salam 'alaikum dearest readers,

IED MUBARAK!

Taqoballahu minna wa minkum, taqoballahu yaa kareem!

Sad & happy! Those words are prolly the best words to represent my feeling today. Sad. Because I have to say g'bye with Ramadhan month (Ya Allah, I hope I still can taste the joyous Ramadhan next month, Aamiin...). Happy. Because finally Iedul Fitri has finally here. Pray to Allah that He is willing to accept all of our ibadah for the whole year (not only in Ramadhan month) & forgive all of our sins.

And I would like to ask for a sincere apology for you all, known or unknown... For I have sinned. Maafin gue yaaaa.... *kisses & hugs*

Anyway the pics below are belated pics that I took on August 11 in Kota Tua. There's this place in which people would consider spooky - yet I think that place is swaaagg! So my husband wanted to sharpen his photography skill, and I wanted to participate in Hijab Hunt by Dian Pelangi. So there... He needed a model, I needed a photographer. What a real mutual relationship we have isn't it? LOL

Hijab: From Mecca. The Agonist tees & gothic lace skirt: Rismakill. Accessories: Unbranded. Boots: Rinsdark

Speaking about Hijab Hunt, I really need your help, ladies. Please go to this link and please give comment & rate for my post. The rate is on the right-side, around the top of the page. And to give them you need to register in the forum. Pleeease gimme your favor will ya? Actually this is the first time I ever participated in this kind of contest. At first I didn't feel confident, but then again I thought "why don't I give a try?" (Since I discreetly have passion in modelling & fashion :p)

And for all the participants I wish you beautiful girls good luck! I hope we can be real friends ;)

Barakallahu fiik... Happy Lebaran once more & remember, do not torture your tummy to work the food out too much, okay? :D

Wassalam,

G.

[News] A very sad news about Multiply...

Dear Multiply,

I'll sound so exaggerate in this entry but I think I won't have nothing to lose anyway. After a while I haven't posted anything in Multiply anymore, this time just minutes ago I wanted to post something to this fave site of mine. I was so shocked reading the "welcome letter" after clicking the "go" button for www.multiply.com

I swallowed the information so slowly I had to read it several times before really comprehending its meaning.

Disappointed
Sad
Shocked

Multiply has been my best social media buddy for the past 8 year since the first time I registered in here in 2004 [though my first post was on Jan 2005]. IMO, it has the most complete form of social media: you love blogging, it has the journal section. You love music, you can add any music you like in the music section. You like to upload your video[s], it provides you also to the video section. Like to review albums / books / movies? Go to the review section. Or you simply want to share your pics, you can upload as many pictures as you want. See? Multiply is a one-stop social media for me. It can fulfill my thirst over writing, narcissism, analytical thoughts, arts, music, movies, books... ANYTHING!

And now they're stopping its function and turning it to a marketplace website! *thunders boomed*

There's nothing I can do now then packing up all my stuffs here and find another "home" that as comfy as this one - if there any. I know I have been hanging around on Twitter & Blogspot for too long and been abandoning this site, but it doesn't mean that I have completely forgotten Multiply. I'm still in love with this site, I just being lost for some period of time.

But then I have to stop using Multiply. We - MPers - have to stop using Multiply. This is a heartbreak. Call me an exaggerated chick but really, letting go a virtual friend you've been with for 8 years is not a piece of cake, esp. when it stores so many sweet and bitter memories about you & be a virtual witness of the life processing of your self-actualization & self-appreciation. I grew up - mentally & psychologically with this site. Multiply has accompanying me in going through my emotional blow & my raging hormones in my teen life. It knows when I fell in love. It knows when I was down & drowned by love. It knows when I almost lost my hope to Allah & my religion. It knows...

And it will be gone soon, in any day now...

I'm most-likely moving to another home, though I won't forget Multiply for the rest of my life. I'll be missing my MPers buddies here; Michael, Nena, Rully, Yelli, Aqse, Mba Diyah, Anjas, Riaa, Mina, Youlee, Esti, Haris, Ihwan, Iie Mistymind, Ipoel, Ira, Jimmy, Julio, Kokoksaja [I don't even know his real name till now, LOL], Loki, Hellmeed [Where is he now ya?], Meytri, gothmina, Murni, Maya, Nonuz, Novieta, Ogie, Oddie [But he's in my TL anyway so...], and other 400 contacts of mine. Gonna miss you all really! And damn my facebook page is not in its proper shape! :'((

Well, guess that's all I wanna say. I canceled my plan to post all entries that I have posted in my Blogger before and decided to post this one. Might be my last post in Multiply. Fuck I'm so sad! :'(((

See ya guys my MPer buddies in another home, different home for each person I guess :) God Bless Multiply :-*

PS: My Multiply site

Wassalam,
G.