[Poem] Flee!

Where should we go, my hobbled footsteps?

Her last trace has been erased by my my rain of tears

In silent whispers I called her

Wishing that she could hear it, or anyone else who could

And send it to her

Where should I look, my puffy eyes?

Her last silhouette has gone along with the miserable dawn

In the darkest hour I swore

I would never fall down and never leave her behind

Because she and I were meant to be

Why should I breathe, my creaking lung?

Our time might have been stopped long time ago

I've drawn transparent lines in between these paths

I can't hold her arms while we're stepping in different ground

While I'm breathing without her...

I said hello to her world last night

Was she there?

I cried my blood through all the holes last night

Was she stare?

I missed her so much it ached me to my weakest

Was she care?

People are living for their own reason

And so am I, and so was she

By that matter I beg You

Knees down

Hands up

If only, You allow me...

Without any wing on me, without any circle mark above me

Let me see her glaring face smile upon me

O' Lord... Let me touch her pale flawless skin

Without any thick transparent lines in between

Let me FLy frEE. Let me FLEE!

If only, Mummy...

G.

PS: For my beloved Mum. You're in the best hand now, I do believe. Just don't mad at me for being such an annoying daughter who cries while yelling at her mommy for a shoulder to cry on. Because really mom, I was, am and will always be your little girl. Forever...

[Brainwaste] When I feel blue...

So when I feel blue...

Will the rain stop and kiss the wind?

Will they embrace me in toxic dream?

So when I feel blue...

I walk upon Your footprint

Surrender my heart to the lucid path

I knew You were there... Somehow somewhere

So when I feel blue...

My naked hands are raised

About Your existence, I bow

I can hear the universe is pausing

And billion people's voice sounding, Your name

And mine was the loudest. In my ears.

So when I feel blue...

I won't go nowhere far from You

I won't be anything worse than I am

Be whom the wind minds to blow

And the rain minds to pour down

I feel blue...

For not being (so) close with You

And for that, forgive me...

Rabb...

G.

[Poetry] A dry cracky hope

You are the mannequin of whom people love to stare

As dashing as one wishes to be

As dreamy as one can’t be

You get all people’s second glimpse

Once is never enough

Yet twice will be a bit too much

This craving from underneath

Screaming in hissing whispers

Crawling upon my naked desire

Shoving to the bleeding surface

Can’t you see this?

Mind me,

I’m checking the cold feet

While pressing the almost-jammed Pause button

This is a wait-worthy, thee…

Supposed to be, most likely

Mind you,

I set my bets already

Twice bigger. Half expected. Risking to its fullest

Ready to fool my fate to the lowest

Can’t you hear me?

It’s just like contouring shades of vanishing shadows

In the last needless effort of me, clearing the smokes

Then I stumble upon a dead-end

Only to bewail a happy ending for nobody

And when I look around, there I see

No one beside me

No one besides me.

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Pic from here.

Sebenarnya bisu.

Tak kau tangkapkah bising nyaring mengerling di ujung daun telingamu
Saat terbiasa menyelam tenggelam dalam lautan hingar bingar sesumbar mu
Satu persatu mengerjap uap tersaring embun pagi lalu mengendap
Racauan itu terbuang sayang melenggang tak terhalang

Mengaduh bait-bait yang Ibu mu takkan ajarkan
Kerikil memang selalu menyebalkan, sayang...
Biarkan mereka menari serupa untaian layang-layang
Jangan kau paksa pendam
Mereka sudah diam

Raungan mu menggelegar di kesunyian
Waktu harus berkompromi saat kau terhilang akal
Semburat segala warna bergelinjangan di ujung indera mu
Sepenuh jiwa, sekosong raga

Entah beban macam apa yang mendadani bawah sadar mu
Begitu mencekamnya aku tidak bisa melukis mu
Kelakar itu akan lekang oleh waktu
Naiklah dari bawah sadarmu

Lawan kebisuan mu
Kelakar itu akan lekang oleh waktu

G.

Pic: Iwed

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A prayer has been said in vain
Whispering the unsaid poet
Which neither ears nor eyes could catch
Low-pitched, sad nuance

She wishes she would never know
She'd rather be playing dead
Slumbering inside a mystical fortress
Ignite. Inside

Curses have been cast discreetly
She tries to reduce the sound of a heartbeat
Pounding over the whole room like rows of carnival
Pressing down clapping emotions
To the limit. Through the exit

The time stop ticking when it happened
Her world collapsed, when the time still
An open mouth and a muffled sound
Eyes wide up, staring as if they permeating
Through the thick wall, all shall fall

On the moment like this,
She would pay for a grave with her name written on
And a bouquet of black roses which don't want visitors
A dreamy death she can't have

She would love to have sticks embedded
To her eyes, to her ears
Mostly to her heart
And when it stops
She would worry nothing
Her heart is safe to where it belong
And would go nowhere near, nowhere far

Embedded.

G.

Pic taken from here